Matlock opened with a Black Widow…
I didn’t like it. Like not at all. I’m watching this show for some good, old-fashioned, Southern lawyering, not to be creeped out. That’s what Murder She Wrote is for…
In any case, where were we? Well for starters, I start the new job tomorrow. I’m a bit nervous and more than a little curious as to how it’s going to go. On the one hand, it’s a new adventure, with new room to grow and new shit to learn. On the other, it could be an absolute, maybe abject failure. I’m hoping it won’t be, but we’ll see.
The lead up to this job change was certainly something else. The stress has been deeply unpleasant and certainly did a number to my sleep, my appetite, my overall day . It brought into light just how lonely and disconnected I’ve become. I’m not particularly good at talking my decisions through with others and, while it’s not like I don’t feel supported by family, it would be nice sometimes to have a teammate. That’s just a whole bunch of whining ultimately though. When you get down to it, I’m doing alright, just a little lonely.
Elsewhere, things are doing alright. I spent a few days dicking around with digital painting, my mind already filling with plans and ideas for how I could use it to turn a profit and what great advancements I could forge for myself through it. Sticking with my resolution to not set goals this year, I actually managed to overcome the usual desire to hyperfocus and throw away whatever I’d been planning up until that point. I forced myself to actually think about what it was that I wanted and how I wanted to spend my time. Ultimately, I not only kept myself on course, but managed to save a little money to boot. Of course a new idea would require some financial investment on my part, some chunk of change that would, down the line, pay off big time. It’s the same old story I’ve told myself over and over again and I didn’t listen to it this time—praise be.
Speaking of what I want to do, I’m making some solid progress on the comics, with the pencils for both of the stories in the first book well underway. Thankfully I have what I need to finish them already, so it’s just a matter of keeping my head down and getting them done. I’m not setting any dates, no goals, just effort.
Dicks for listening!