Insert Staind Song Title Here…

I’m talking about Mudshovel. Obviously.

What is it about purging images from Instagram that just feels so goddamn good? I’m not certain, but it’s always a bit of a treat. Following Meta’s AI nonsense, I decided to just go ahead and wipe that content from my profile. I consider this a win in my general discontent with social media in general.

I’ve spoken about this before, but I am not fond of social media and the feelings I get while on it. The memes are lovely and I genuinely enjoy the ease with which I’m able to connect and reconnect with friends on social media, I get almost nothing but negative feelings about my art. Look, I recognize that I’m not that little kid with his whole life ahead of him, and I’m aware as to just how unrealistic my dreams were/are, but trying to post art and connect on social media is just so goddamn demeaning. Seeing so many younger artists getting seen and having their careers grow in ways mine never did just crushes my mood. I don’t want to be bitter, and I am genuinely happy to see people pursuing their dreams and having them come true. I’m more than aware at how self-defeating I’ve been with my own, but being reminded about it every time I open the apps has gotten old.

I’m not quitting art though. I wouldn’t dream of it. It really is about the only reason I see for staying alive so, I’ll keep on keeping on.

Speaking of art, I’ve been toying again (and again and again) with the idea of pushing myself to do more digitally—specifically when it comes to comics. I’m genuinely a little torn on this as I’d like to produce more/ go faster—something I believe digital can help with— but I also love working traditionally. I’ve told myself I’d finish up MTC and Un Chien and see how I feel about it with 2 comics in the bag. If I still want to go digital, I’ll invest, otherwise I’ll stick with traditional.

In any case, dicks for listening.