I wanna dance with somebody…

Wanna beat my meat with somebody,

with somebody who loves me…

God that was so stupid.

Any who…

This is definitely one of those days where I wish I’d had a better understanding of how establishing self-worth worked when I was younger so that I could reap those benefits now that I’m older.

Though I know I’ve mentioned it before, I’ve never really put forth an actual effort to make it as an artist. Sure I’ve posted online and tried to get a couple of projects off of the ground, both alone and with others, and have sold a random piece here or there, I’ve never really made an attempt. I’ve never really gone to networking events, galleries, conventions. I’ve never sent out submissions to publications, agents, never entered contests, never tried to get hired at studios producing the sort of things I liked. I’ve never reached out to people I know, never tried to maintain working friendships. To top it all off, I’ve almost never finished any of my projects/ pieces.

How do I start now though, where do I go. I genuinely seem to have little clue as to how to build a career, never mind having the self-worth to go for it.

I guess the first goal then is to get some shit finished. I can’t sell what I don’t have. It seems stupid, foolish, and downright childish to be trying this again at damn near 40, but I’ve got to make a change. I’ve got a couple more years in me sure, but I can’t keep spending my days working for someone else’s retirement. I can’t keep wasting my life helping someone else enjoy theirs.

I have to try.

Dicks for listening!